I was always known to be the type of woman who gets things done. There was no hurdle I couldn’t jump over. Little did I know those actions made me guilty of moving ahead of God.
You know what they say about women who can make a dollar out of fifteen cents? Well, that was, and at times, still is me! I was creative with paying bills, buying gifts on a dime, and making our dinners stretch until we ran out of resources and hit rock bottom!
I remember one week I was paying our bills in which we had enough to cover everything, except for one bill that was due that Monday. It was a Friday that I called André at work and said we are down to our last stock account and to pay this bill we need to call the stock trade in before 3 p.m.
André sat in silence for a moment, and said: “I know what time it is, and I think we need to wait”. I explained if we don’t sell the stock, then how are we going to pay the bill by Monday. André said he wasn’t sure but what he knew, was that we needed to wait.
Moving Ahead of God
Waiting wasn’t easy for me. There was no such thing as delayed gratification, if I delayed what I wanted that was my fault. Well, at least, that was my mentality back then. However, in this situation, I had learned by this time, to submit to my husband and in that submission, I found peace.
On one hand, it was sexy to see my husband take a stand as the head of our home under his submission to God. And for that I gladly submitted!
To our surprise, that weekend we had received a card in the mail with $50 cash, and a card was given to Andre at church with $500 cash. Look at God! We were not only able to pay the bill that was due Monday, but we had money left over.
As I sat in awe about what God did that weekend, I realized how many times I went ahead of God to get what I wanted done, when I wanted it done, instead of waiting on Him. Just think how much we could have gotten done sooner, or better, if I had learned to wait on Him every time for everything in our life.
In The End
Well, that experience paved the way to change my thinking and reliance on myself. Through that experience, I learned to wait on God and when I don’t know what to do, do nothing. Too many times we move out of fear, anxiousness, and worry instead of trusting that God will do what He promises.
Waiting on God has become a lifestyle, not a habit for us. And I thank God for the struggles we’ve been through together that brought us to a deeper place of reliance on Him.
“Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.” ~ Matthew 6:33 (NLT)
When we truly seek God’s face, and not what we can get from Him, He will see to it that we have all that we need. Resist the temptation to move ahead of God. After all, He is God.
~ Timberley Gray